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Mereka Datang dan Menjelma Aku

Kamu dikalahkan oleh peran yang kamu ciptakan sendiri. Kata-kata itu masih sangat terngiang dikepalaku, Dirga berulang kali mengatakan hal itu. Aku hanya bisa menelan ludah atas semua hal yang telah aku lakukan, ‘aku sudah tidak mengenalmu’. Aku tak pernah bisa melupakan semua kalimat yang terucap dari bibirnya itu, kalimat itu adalah hal terakhir yang aku dengar sampai hari ini.

Di sebuah ruangan pengap ini aku terbaring. Ruangan ini sangat bau, maklum aku tak begitu suka dengan aroma khas obat-obatan. Sudah seminggu aku berada di tempat ini dengan sebuah alat bernama Elektrokardiagram yang bertugas mendeteksi denyut jantungku serta berbagai alat suntik, infus dan opname sebagai alat untuk bernafas. Aku melihat diriku yang terbaring itu, sejenak aku berpikir keras untuk kembali pada tubuh yang lemah itu. Aku perhatikan tiap bagian tubuhnya, hingga ke pergelangannya yang memiliki bekas sayatan.

Aku tak bisa mengingat atas apa yang telah aku lakukan pada tubuhku yang malang itu hingga akhirnya Dirga datang dan menjenguk. Aku tak bisa mendengar apa yang ia katakan—mungkin karena kami berbeda dimensi—aku hanya bisa memperhatikan gerak-geriknya yang penuh kesedihan itu.

Berulang kali aku mencoba membunuh diriku sendiri, meski pada dasarnya aku memang sudah mati. Akhirnya aku ingat semua itu. Sebuah potongan beling kini berada di ingatanku. Tangan yang bersimbah darah itu seakan menjelma dan mengotori roh ini.

“ Dia datang Dir.” Kataku dengan mata yang sangat ketakutan. “ Dia siapa?!” “ Dia, dia yang datang dari kegelapan, dia sisi gelapku.” Aku masih mencoba meyakinkan Dirga, bahwa ada seseorang yang selalu mengejarku, yaitu diriku sendiri. “ Kamu kenapa sih akhir-akhir ini jadi sering berhalusinasi Gis? Nggak ada yang datang Gisaang. Di sini cuman kita berdua. Percaya sama suamimu ini.” “ Nggak Dirga, dia datang, dia mengejarku, AKU BISA GILA!!” aku mengacak-acak rambutku yang tergerai itu. Sesaat aku berteriak dan melempar semua benda yang ada di hadapanku.
Ada sesuatu yang mengejarku, ia adalah diriku sendiri. Ia datang lewat mimpi dan bayangan cermin, aku yakin dia akan menangkapku dengan tatapannya yang menyeringai itu. Dia memiliki kekuatan yang sangat jahat dan gelap. Aku tak berani untuk menatapnya, meski ia selalu datang tanpa diduga-duga.
Semua itu terjadi sejak aku menjadi seorang penulis fiksi profesional, setelah buku pertamaku berhasil di terbitkan oleh salah satu penerbit ternama. Aku memang sangat tertarik untuk menulis cerita-cerita thriller yang mengandung unsur darah dan pembunuhan, buku pertamaku yang berjudul “ The Confessions” itu memanglah ber-genre thriller. Aku seakan terjebak pada sebuah peran yang aku ciptakan entah ini sebagian dari naluri psikopatku atau memang bakatku yang lebih terasah saat menulis sesuatu yang penuh dengan kengerian dan kekejian.
Aku telah menerbitkan 10 buku dan semuanya ber-genre Thriller, kadang suamiku Dirga selalu mengingatkanku agar aku tidak terjebak dengan sebuah genre. Kini aku terkena dampaknya, tokoh yang aku ciptakan tiba-tiba menjelma yang semakin lama berubah menjadi diriku sendiri.
“ Dir, kamu ingatkan tokoh Kyrani yang aku ciptakan? Dia memanggilku, dia datang dengan satu matanya yang buta itu. Dia datang dan tiba-tiba berubah menjadi aku. Ingat kamu jangan sekali-kali mematikan laampu atau ia akan datang membunuhku, membunuh kita. Jangan tinggalkan aku sendirian Dirgaaa.. aku ketakutan sangat ketakutan.” Dipojok kamar aku duduk dengan lutut yang terlipat dan tangan yang tak terlepas memeluk lututku sendiri.
“ Nggak ada yang akan datang Gisang. Kamu cuman berhalusinasi. Kamu harus kembali ke psikiater. Kamu harus banyak istirahat.”
“ Kamu pikir aku gila?! Aku nggak GILA!! Mereka memang datang, semua tokoh yang aku ciptakan datang dari kegelapan. Lama kelamaan mereka menyatu dan berubah menjadi diriku sendiri. Kamu tahu kenapa dia datang? Apalagi kalau tidak untuk membunuhku.!!”
“ Kamu nggak gila sayang, tapi kamu harus berkonsultasi. Kamu sudah minum obat penenang hari ini?”
“ Berhenti menyuruhku memakan obat sialan itu. Kau tahu, dia membuatku tertidur. Mereka akan mendatangiku lewat mimpi. Aku tak mau tertidur atau aku akan kalah dari mereka.” Kataku dengan nada bersungguh-sungguh, sudah dua hari aku tak tidur. Aku sangat takut saat memejamkan mata, saat melihat cermin dan juga saat berada di kegelapan.
Dirga tiba-tiba kehilangan kendali dan berteriak “ Dasar wanita sialan!! Ya, kamu memang sudah gila. Aku sudah bilang padamu berkali-kali agar meninggalkan ceritamu yang penuh darah dan mengerikan itu!! Aku sendiri selalu ngeri saat membaca ceritamu itu, apa kau tak merasakannya sama sekali? Wajar saja bila mereka mendatangimu. Mungkin mereka ingin membalas dendam atas cerita yang telah kau buat. Aku lelah dengan semua perubahan sikapmu itu, kau menjadi aneh luar biasa aneh. Sudah hampir setahun kau selalu begini, kau tahu aku berusaha sabar, tapi kini aku sudah tak bisa menahannya lagi!” Dirga membanting lampu tidur itu ke lantai sesekali aku menjerit. Aku semakin ketakutan, Dirga berubah menjadi seseorang yang mengerikan.
“ BUNUH AKU SEKARANG WANITA JALANG!! Atau lama kelamaan aku yang jadi gila.” Ia mengambil serpihan beling lampu tidur itu dan menyodorkannya ke arahku.
“ Tolong Dirga, jangan seperti ini aku takut. kau lama-lama menjadi tokoh yang aku ciptakan 10 tahun yang lalu, jangan menjadi Jack sayang!!” aku mencoba memeluknya namun ia menolak.
“ Kalau aku memang Jack kenapa?!!! Bukankah seperti yang kau katakan, para tokoh itu datang menemuimu, tenang sayang aku tidak akan membunuhmu kau saja yang menancapkan beling ini ke jantungku maka hidupmu akan selamat.” Ia menarik tanganku dan memaksaku untuk menancapkan potongan beling itu ke arahnya, jelas aku menolak dan berusaha berdiri.
Aku berlari menghindarinya dan membanting pintu kamar ada kalimat yang aku dengar “ KAMU TERJEBAK OLEH PERAN YANG KAU CIPTAKAN SENDIRI. AKU SUDAH TIDAK MENGENALMU!!!” teriak lelaki itu. Aku hanya bisa merintih, dia lelaki itu, orang yang kucintai berubah menjadi sosok yang mengerikan bagiku. Langkahku begitu rapuh sambil menggigit jari, air mata tak bisa aku berhentikan, sesaat Dirga tiba-tiba menghampiri dan memelukku “ Maafkan aku sayang, tak seharusnya aku berperilaku seperti ini!” ia mencium rambut dan keningku berulang kali. Aku yakin ia menyesali atas apa yang telah ia katakan kepadaku.
“ Aku janji akan menolong dan selalu berada disisimu.” Ia tersenyum tulus, namun senyuman itu berganti menjadi sebuah seringaian yang sangat mengerikan. “ JACK?!!!” aku mendorongnya dan masih menggenggam potongan beling yang Dirga berikan padaku. “ Apa kabar Gisang? Sang Pencipta!! Kau tahu aku lahir dari tangan dan naluri pembunuhmu itu.”
“ Bukan, kamu bukan Jack kamu Dirga suamiku!!!” langkahku mundur perlahan.
“ Suamimu itu sudah mati, aku Jack!”
“ Jangan berani memajukan langkahmu itu.”
“ Atau?”
“ Aku akan membunuhmu.”
“ Bagaimana kalau seperti ini?” ia memajukan langkahnya dan berubah menjadi diriku sendiri. Aku kaget dengan spontan aku menancapkan beling itu tepat di perutnya. Aku berhasil menusuknya, sesaat aku merasa puas. Namun setelah aku membalikkan badannya ternyata itu adalah Dirga, suamiku.

Aku dikalahkan oleh mereka, aku mengambil potongan beling yang menancap di perut Dirga. Aku menyayat tanganku sendiri, dan memakan berbagai jenis obat penenang denga jumlah banyak. Semenjak hari itu, aku tak tahu lagi berada di mana.


Aku hanya bisa menangis saat mengingat apa yang telah kulakukan. Syukurlah suamiku masih hidup dan sudi menjenguk ragaku yang lemah itu. Ya, mereka berhasil menjebakku Kyrani, Jack, Delvan dan lainnya. Tapi aku belum sepenuhnya kalah, karena jantung itu masih tetap berdetak.

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But I’m a Creep…

But I’m a Creep,
I’m a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here
I don’t belong here

Radiohead – Creep

Wanita Ber-plastik Palsu

Aku melihatnya sebagai wanita yang rapuh dan penuh kepalsuan. Ia hanyalah sebuah mannequin yang akhirnya hanya dipermainkan pria dan di buang layaknya barang rusak. Kini wanita itu sedang bersedih, wajahnya yang terbuat dari plastik itu tetap dipamerkan dan menjadi pajangan.
“ Kamu cantik” banyak orang yang berkata seperti itu dan mencoba menyentuh wajahnya. Ia memang sangat cantik dan alami. Tapi tetap saja semua itu hanyalah terbuat dari plastik, kulitnya begitu putih dan kencang, tepat seperti porselen.
Ia melakukan segala cara untuk menyenangkan dunia dan dirinya sendiri. Termasuk menjalani sebuah kepalsuan dari hidupnya. Hidupnya sama seperti porselen yang mudah retak dan pecah. Dia seperti boneka yang hidup dan bukan lagi manusia yang mirip boneka. Dan lama-kelamaan baginya hidup ini akan seperti plastik yang palsu.

Fake Plastic Trees – Radiohead

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Novel into Film: TRANSFORMATION CHARACTERIZATION of “ HOW TO TRAIN YOUR DRAGON”

I should assume that literature and film is a natural marriage and sometimes it would be shotgun wedding. It’s because film is more commercial than novel. So the director or producer has to composing about the story and plot. Not only plot but also the character must be commercial enough to be watched. This occurred to ones character of the adaptation animation film that was directed by Dean De Blois and Chris Sanders with titled How To train Your Dragon I.
How to Train Your Dragon is animation adaptation film from the first of serials novel with the same titled by Cressida Cowell on 2003. Actually, How to Train Your Dragon movie is worked by Dreamworks and directed by Dean De Blois and Chris Sanders which released on 2010. As we knew about adaptation film we’ll find the differences about both of them. One of them occured to the main character of the story, he is Hiccup Horendus Huddock III.
There is some differences from Hiccup, I argue that Hiccup in the film is more commercial than novel. Especially, as the physical I can imagine that Hiccup in novel version is someone who has small body and his face is full of acnes like Cowell imagined at the illustration of the novel Hiccup is weirdo. Whereas in film I claimed that Hiccup has good looking even his body is small than the other. Hiccup also has the same posture with Astrid ( The addition girl character in the film whose didn’t exist in the novel version). It meant that main character must be commercial, because almost people want and expected the main character as someone who has good looking character.
Besides physic, there is some differences about the characterization. In the story Hiccup is a Viking who different from others. His dad is a leader of Viking who has huge body, tall, and long-whiskered. Hiccup is an heir, the candidate of the next leader. But there is something different from Hiccup, he didn’t like his father. His body is too small to be a leader, he is also regarded as a loser by his friends. Many Viking says, he is not appropriate to be a leader.
Hiccup as the main character in this story has his own way to be an hero. In novel version Hiccup is someone who has no ambition in his life, he is described as a coward and useless.  “ kalian mungkin sekarang sudah menebak bahwa Hiccup tidak terlahir sebagai seorang pahlawan sejati..” “Kalian tidak akan pernah memilih Hiccup dari kesepuluh anak laki-laki itu untuk menjadi pahlawan dalam cerita ini” (Cressida Cowell: 15).
I assumed that Cowell tries to deliver to us about ‘ to be an hero we can start it with the zero’. Even in film version the director also  wanted to delivered the message like Cowell did, actually he have his own way to imagined Hiccup. Hiccup character in film version has almost the same physical characteristics with the novel (even in the film version Hiccup is more commercial) but not mentally. In movie Hiccup seems as ambitious person. He is smart but he was underestimated by his friends because his body is too small as the Viking. As the excerpt of the script “ owh, their jobs so much cooler.” “ oh come on,let me out please I need to make my marked” “ please, two minute I’ll kill the dragon my life will get infenitely better I might even get a date:”
At those excerption of the script, I argues that Hiccup in movie version is more brave than in novel version. At the beginning I can feel that Hiccup really wanted to be a hero, he bored about his safe zone, it’s different from the novel Hiccup’s character seem like a loser.
In Cowell’s Hiccup is someone really nerd because he can speak Dragonese. He used to hide his ability in order to not get the nerd reputated by his friends. Actually he was looser even he was kind. In film version Hiccup found Toothless ( Night Fury Dragon) and adopted him. Hiccup as someone who has ambitious character changing into charitable because acquainted by Toothless.
Toothless in both version are also different. I revealed that Toothless is the symbol of Hiccup bravery. In book version Toothless is only Garden Dragon which has brown colour and toothless. Whereas in the film version Toothless is more powerful, he has black colour and named as Night Fury ( The most dangerous dragon in Viking). I concluded that Hiccup in film is more competent because he has the wild dragon. In the film Toothless also more commercial with his cute face.
“ Despite his physical shortcomings, Hiccup does his best to succeed as a Viking. He is smart and is constantly creating inventions for various uses throughout the film, including a bola sling, a prosthetic tail, a saddle, and a riding vest. At first, however, Hiccup is almost obsessed with proving himself to the rest of his tribe; he often doesn’t think things through and is more determined to gain the recognition of his peers than he is heedful of others’ orders, often causing problems for the rest of the tribe, and himself. Despite this, Hiccup shows great aptitude at being a leader and a strategist: he leads his Dragon Training classmates into battle, using his friends’ strengths wisely in the battle against the Red Death. Hiccup also has very good observational skills which come in handy during his time with Toothless and during Dragon Training. For example, he’s able to hypothesize that Dragons have a natural disdain for eel when his own Dragon companion refuses to eat one himself, and uses this to successfully drive back a Hideous Zippleback later.” (Wiki.2010)
But in the conflict Hiccup become awkward person, he was not too confident by his dad. Actually in the novel his dad named Stoick the Vast is a gentle dad he really loved Hiccup. Slightly different from film version Stoick is really feel embarrased about Hiccup.
The climax of the film is similar, Hiccup has to marked himself as hero by defeating the huge dragon. Even, the the resolution is different. Hiccup in novel version can speak Dragonese and acquired to have a dreaded dragon but actually he just get the garden dragon named toothles. Whereas in film version Hiccup knew how to train the dragon with make a friend with dragon named Toothless which is really dreaded by Viking, hi genus is Night Fury, different from the book. He knew to paralyzed the dragon with teached Toothless, in novel version he paralyzed the dragon with speak dragonese.
Bogs (2008) revealed that some film makers seem to assume that very few filmgoers wil know the novel. These filmmakers disregard the basic spirit of the novel inadapting it to film, thus destroying the film completely forthose amiliar with the book. In such cases, the film must be judged as a completely distinct work of art… Ironically, a loose adaptation may seem a better film to those who are not familiar with tl1e novel than to those who have read and loved it. Thus, a viewer who read the book before seeing the film may have a distinct advantage when the film depends on the viewer’s knowledge of the book. As Cowell said in the interview
Actually, if we watch the film version first. We feel didn’t need to watch the book because, actually in this film has the difference version as the new story. Even, this movie is animation adaptation. Dreamworks remark the story with commercial side. But I assumed that this film is also has the allure more than the book. As Cowell said that “I think it changes the theme particularly. The themes are very much in the same territory, but I have to say, my feeling going into the whole thing, and still now, is that films and books are very different mediums. I can only speak for myself, I suppose, and the way that I approach it, which is I don’t think for a film, even when I go see a film (let alone have my own book developed into a film), I don’t go seeking for it to be exactly the same as the book. I look for it to be a wonderful movie. And that is the criteria by which I judge a film.” ( Cowell)
To those convinced that novels and movies are mutually exclusive endeavours, each with its own incontestably unique properties and effects, it is useful to remember that the modern novel actually anticipated many effects and storytelling techniques, like temporal, causal, and spatial disjunctions, that we are all too accustomed—sometimes erroneously—to regard as essentially “cinematic.” ( Tibbets: xvi)
I concluded that novel and film has unique things that filled each other. Film has cinematography which focused on effect and animation in order to make the story more realistic. Actually, novel can make the reader to put their perception about the story. Compared that in How to Train Your Dragon in both version have the powerful story. In novel we found the zero to hero besides, in film we found Hiccup-Toothless friendship.
The ending of film version has the powerfull feeling. Actually, in the novel is also make us affected about the story. But but the incident when Hiccup must accept the fact that his leg amputated due to sacrifices for the many people is the best scene. Besides he must accepted that his legs got amputated, the friendship between Toothless and Hiccup is really intimated.
The film , by arranging external sign for our visual perception, or by presenting us with dialogue, can lead us to infer thought. But it cannot show us thought directly. It can show us characters thinking, feeling and speaking but it cannot show us their thoughts and feelings. A film is not thought ; it is perceived. ( George Blustone : 1956).
We can’t pick which is best or better on these same story because, the media is different. The story is appropriate with the requirement. In the novel Hiccup is one person who really zero to be hero, the story is also told about friendship. In the movie Hiccup is one person who really brave to give his sacrifice to Viking. But the similar thing about Hiccup is the gentle and kind boy. He really loved friendship and Toothless.
Besides the differences of characteristic of Hiccup. In the film we can find the romance between Hiccup and the main girl character named Astrid. Of, course in the novel we would not found her, because Astrid is the addition character that is made by Dreamworks. Astrid came to balance Hiccup character. Maybe, Astrid is commercial character in order to make the story more dramatic and romantic.
If we compared both of them, actually film version is more complicated then the novel. The story of the novel is simple and appropriate to read by kids. In the book is also added the ilustration and the interesting notes. Whereas in film version the complexity make adults wants to watch this animation film. Actually, IMDb surveyed that this film get the gratify rating with 8,2.

References
Cowell, Cressida. How To Train Your Dragon. Trans. Mutiara Dharma, 2010. Bandung: Mizan. print
Bogs, Joseph M and Denis W Petrie. The Art of Watching Film, 2008.Lisa Moore: New York
Blustone, George .Novels into Film, 1965. University Of California: Los Angeles. Print.
Wiki. Hiccup Horrendus Haddock III, 2010.web. 31 May, 2014. http://howtotrainyourdragon.wikia.com/wiki/Hiccup_Horrendous_Haddock_III
How To Train Your Dragon. Dir. Dean De Blois; Chris Sanders. Perf. Jay Baruchel, Gerard Butler, Christopher Mintz-Plasse. DreamWorks, 2010.dvd
IMDb. How To Train Your Dragon.2010. web. 1 June 2014. http://www.imdb.com
Tibbets, John C; James M Welsh. The Encyclopedia of Novels into Films: Second Edition. 2005. New York : Facts on File. Print.

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